I think I’ve talked about this before, but all my problems stem from lack of confidence. Why do I lack confidence? It’s probably a side effect of the depression, which is then fed by the lack of confidence, so it’s certainly a cycle. Couple that with some trouble learned behaviors that I’m trying to undo with a little bit of success. The question, then, is how does one build confidence? Owning their successes, I would imagine, and probably just not hating themselves. At the very least, hiding any amount of self-loathing well. I think eye contact might also be part of it? I don’t know. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to completely shed my awkward persona, nor would I really want to, but I can at least be confidently awkward.